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Kiseki Wa? (Are there Miracles?) Greatest Dream: To witness a miracle. Does that line sound familiar? Yes, it's from a well-known movie, but I am not here to focus about it. I'm here to tell you all that I've been yearning for it all along, and I am so scared that God won't allow that to happen to me. I am here to tell you that I am scared of dying, I only realized it by now... scared because I really don't want to leave. I have lots of dreams, lots of future plans for my family... to raise them from the poverty that we are in now. I've still a lot of unfinished work in this world. I've still have to fix my relation with Him, that guy up above the heavens who's now looking at a sinful mortal, and that is me. Most of all, I have to tell someone that I love him immensely, yet his back seemed to be always turned to me. Weird as it may seem, he seemed to be so far away though he's so near... for I talk to him almost every day of my life. I dream of a better life when I grow up, become a great doctor who will cure people of their illnesses, travel a lot, make novels, and in the end, settle down and raise wonderful kids. and have a partner who will accept the dark of me and appreciate the other side of me which I show to many people almost never But those dreams seemed so far.... far away, light-years away. Are there still miracles? I'm beginning to lose my faith on other people, to God, and especially the one who I love secretly yet he doesn't notice. He doesn't know it anyway. I tried to convey it, but he just seemed to ignore... and forget. I just wish to see the brightest star that will light my life and show me the colors I'm blind onto. I just wish to see an exceptional miracle, a miracle just for me. |
